Me, Myself and I

Monday, March 31, 2008

Debate, debate and debates, arguments, arguments and arguments. Now what? It's over! all those shits and craps. Nothing will change the point of view, yes in fact nothing. Why things turn out this way? I don't understand, why? I wasn't left a choice. We could have remained silent but well our actions are obvious. So what we wanted was simple. An ending. No trust, no faith, no nothing. Totally screwed. Thanks anyway. Seperate ways will be better. Our path had long already been chosen. Speechless you may say but this are the consequences that you will never expect. But well, different people have different point of view but for me I'm not neutral in this. Sometimes you're alright but most of the times, you crossed the line and it pissed us off. Freak you. Treat it like you're captain jack from pirates of the carribbean but you're a noob that causes your ship to sank. As simple as that. I hate, I dislike, I disagree. A contradicting theory. Screw this. A person with ulterior motive. Maybe you are smart but 一山还比一山高. People have brains, especially people that knows you. It's so obvious. You're a scary person, makes me think twice before talking. You're the second dangerous person on Singapore. Mas Selamat Kastari is the first as we all know. The only difference is you're not running but he is. Change everything thing changed. Ruined everything. Good job! Hopeless, speechless and meaningless. Maybe you tried being a better person but as we can see I don't think it works and thanks for the effort. Anyway happy April's Fool Day everyone! Don't get punk today. I'm sure she will be very touched because you chosen her. Thank for the memories but it's fading. Bye~ A problem off my chest. I don't what she's thinking. Crazy girl. She's not my choice anyway. And regarding another person, cheer up, take care and smiles~ It's 6.10am now, guess I'm off to bed. Nights! Oh it's morning already. =X

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Hello everybody. I'm feeling rather empty now but nevertheless I think I'm happy. I just don't know what I'm thinking? Can anybody tell me what's love? Yeah I know, it's some complicated stuff that nobody can explain. Follow your heart, follow your soul, most importantly, have faith and be strong. I'm a weakling. I don't know maybe there's just consequences behind my choice but still the choice is still mine alone. Nobody can help me but myself. But I'm helpless simply lost. Helpless is too vague to be used. Lost is a much suitable word in this situation. I don't want to be guilty, I didn't mean to hurt anyone maybe I should remain alone forever. This sucks to the core. I'm a happy go lucky person, ain't I? Nope. Even if I'm happy I won't go lucky. I'm just a bad person. An evil and wicked person I suppose. Well I went to ACJC fun o rama yesterday, squeezed and walked many rounds around the school saw some familiar faces in there. Misses lots of stuffs, peoples and moments. All I can say is let nature take its course. All I wish is for everybody to be happy. The inspirations of mine triggers my mind to create sentimental phrases to awakes others. I'm not contented of what I have now. I know what I'm short of. Maybe I'll get it but is it the right one? Who knows? Even me myself don't know. But someday, I'll realize what I really wants and needs. Someday just someday and hopefully it's not too late by then. Best wishes to everybody~

Friday, March 28, 2008

CHALET CHALET CHALET!!!

Hey! I'm back from chalet! hahaha! alright, chalet was fun! taken quite some photos from there. The place we went was Aloha Fairy Point Bungalow @ Changi. Quite deserted and spooky there. Well I won't say much, let the photos do the job ya? hahaha =)
Oh Old Changi Hospital was located near there and it was scary even though it is already left vacant for many years but you wouldn't know what's inside. =x Spooky stuff. During the first night when Jeremy and I were walking out to fetch Yuan Chao and Kai Peng to the chalet both of us walked pass Old Changi Hospital and I don't even dare to look up just in case I saw something. Although it was dark and you can't see anything but the streets were quiet and the wind were cold making me shivers but with the distractions of Jeremy's handphone, it makes me feels more normal then abnormal. Hmm. During the night everybody slept quite late I think but I stayed up the latest because I don't feel like sleeping so I browse the net using Yuan Chao's notebook till 6am then I turned in. Next day was the day to BBQ. We had indoor soccer inside the chalet! YES INDOOR! hahaha and it was fun! We play like we were crazy already only with the mindset of scoring. bodies flying around and Derrick suffered some casualties. He banged onto something. After that Meng Yik arrived and we continue playing soccer then, it was time to BBQ and everybody start to prepare for the BBQ except me. I watched drama in the comfortable air-conditioned room for hours. Watching and watching until 10 plus Jin min arrived then i went out to grab some food and crap along with Yan jing talking about some nonsense stuff. There's even a short video taken by Derrick.

Yup the above was the lame video taken by Derrick. Just look at Yan jing expression! OMG!

Look! Yuan Chao was OWNED by Kai Peng! LOL! How come you always fall asleep? HAHAHA! Kai peng is very happy to own him as we can see he's laughing happily! I wonder who took this photo?

Yan Jing Got emotional sometimes. Aww come on don't be sad! It's fun time! ahahahaha! =))

Okie now back to typing. hmm, oh oh I didn't get into RP as it was expected by me so it's okie. I'm heading to Bishan ITE for Accounting. Everybody is going everywhere. I guess the time we'll be able to spend together will be lesser. I'll remember the times I had with you guys to be true it was awesome. All 5 years in Swiss Cottage we spent together will always be in my heart. The times we had, the tears whoever shed, the nonsense we created, the crap we said and most importantly, the balls we played. I'll remember! Stay in touch everybody! We'll be meeting new friends too. Hope that everybody get nice new friends not like those fucked up ones. Should know what I'm talking about right? hahaha! For now, I wish everybody success in every little thing you do! All the best and stay in touch! Take care everybody

Monday, March 24, 2008

Today was fine, I guess? Seeing people filled their hands with happiness makes me feels so alone. Cherish whatever you have people because it's wrong to take things for granted. Many thoughts ran through my head as I sees different things and different peoples. Good and bad memories I had but mostly is all good memories that i missed so much. I really misses those memories I had, how I wish I could go back but you wouldn't let me so I had no choice but to walk alone in this world filled with darkness and cruelness. It's never fair maybe it's all predestined. I wonder what I do to deserve this? Well but I still got to move on. I suppose tomorrow will be quite a busy and tiring day because it's chalet. Hope it could enlighten me because I have many happy friends with me therefore makes the the only emotional one. I had inspirations for writing poems today. Those all the top right hand side of my blog is what I written. Yes it's emotional but I'll write some happy poems when inspiration hits me again. But I bet it won't be that soon. So be patient guys. Today went to town with Xiao jun and Jeremy then we walked around in Ngee Ann City and Heren because Xiao jun was supposed to buy flip flops in New Urban Male for her brother so we just have to follow her saw 3 New Urban Male dickheads working down there. After buying the sky turns dark and clouds gets heavier and it rains so the three of us were stucked there because it's like raining cats and dogs outside. We headed back in and found ourselves a bench and we sat down and crap while waiting for Derrick to come meet us. Heard the song With You by Chris Brown from some random shop and thoughts starts running into my head but with the distractions of Jeremy I didn't think that much at that point of time. Well done Jeremy, you're humorous today which you always are but only today more humorous than me so I think you are great. Thanks buddy! I'm joking on the more humorous than me part because I'm lame not humorous but anyway Jeremy, you're great! After some time, Derrick arrived with an umbrella he bought in Takashimaya because he needed one to come over to Heren as it was raining outside. We then headed back to Wisma to had our dinner in Food Republic which the noodles I had sucks! Strongly advised not to eat the fish ball noodle stall! It sucks! Worse dinner ever! the noodle tasted like Blah~ Argh~ forget it. After that walked around Wisma went to The Project Shop and Xiao jun wanted to buy a notebook bag and for don't know what reasons she bought it but she bought it in Paragon The Project Shop but not the one in Wisma. Oh! I remembered the reason already! Because she wanted to take a look in Crumpler due to the psycho of Derrick trying to change her mind but eventually she is fated to buy the notebook bag in The Project Shop because Crumpler had already closed. Well, some things are fated and not meant to be. We saw gays in The Project Shop. One of them was working as a retailer and the other was sitting down waiting for his gay to knock off. I didn't noticed it after Jeremy mentioned about it. Xiao jun was laughing at the one waiting, who is sitting down and chewing on some food which Xiao jun thinks is very funny. Too bad I missed it if not, I would laugh also because the way she says is very funny. After that we all went back by train. Had a tiring day. Yawns~ No matter how tired I'm, I still, I still misses you.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Here's a first post. Well nothing much actually, just suddenly felt like blogging so I created one too! =) I shall blog all my emotions up here from now on. Things weren't any better though. People would say "What's there to think?" but for me it's different, totally different. Maybe we just have a different point of view. Simple as that! Hmm, still thanks even though. It's really appreciated! =) Sighs! I just have to be strong about it. Oh ya! DAE results are coming soon but i doubt it'll be successful for me =( nah treat it as I never said. My confidence of getting in is zero! I need encouragements, I need someone to pull me up because I'm down, I've fallen once again. Any loving hands to come pick me up? Nah! I don't need any I think? Hmm, I learnt a new chinese phrase from Jia Jun on Saturday but I forgotton it already =x It's about being calm and steady when you're fallen and I think it's quite a meaningful phrase to remember just like what Niwen told me before. 天涯何处无方草，何必单恋一枝花？Makes sense isn't it? But guess what? It simply can't get into my head! Well, you can say I'm quite a stubborn person or maybe I think too much already because many things had been running in my head for the past few days and I'm darn tired right now. Today, went to catch SEMI PRO in westmall last night and the movie was still alright after that had my dinner around 9 plus at a nearby coffee shop and the western food stall aunty simply sucks! The rice is pathetic but the chicken taste nice! Thumbs up! But the aunty still SUCKS! It's already 6.20am but I just don't feel like sleeping. It's time to rise and shine and to go school or for other it's time for work! YAWNS~ Things will be fine I guess, just needs a little faith for myself =) Cheers everybody~