The tears in my eyes
The secrets in your eyes
Covered up with lies
Something that live within every lines
This is darkness in life
It's all too fast
Thought it would last
Turns into a moment I can't trust
In life there are regrets
Something that can't be forget
No matter how hard you try to get
There are still regrets
In this world, there's life
In life, there's happenings
Behind happenings, there's emotions
Every action leads to emotion
Smiles, tears and sulks
Emotional emotions
Where it all comes from
I got it alll wrong
Tell me where it's from
So I could be strong
It's hard to believe
A burden hard to lift
I need some relieve
I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want to have another moments that I've regretted. Please be fair to me. I simply can't believe that it's going to be another so near yet so far for me. I can't bring it up because I know time is the obstacle. I'm tired but still I want to take it slow. Understand more. Sometimes, I wished I could take everything out from me but it would be to hassle for me. How I wish I could read minds and sense everything that's happening. Help me anyone? Working later so shall stopped now. Blog afterwards. Bye peeps.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Well, work work work as usual. Sighs bad day. Felt kind of boring when I was appointed being a misc runner which the work is simply troublesome and dirty. The day before I wanted to be misc runner they gave me runner then the next day I don't want to be misc runner they appointed me as a misc runner. What the fuck? Misses the smiles of customers when I looked at them and smile they'll smile back. How cute. There's a lady with his boyfriend, I think? She looked at me then I looked at her and smiled, she smiled back at me. Then I was like oh my god first time a customer smiled back at me while I'm not serving them. So fun. The feeling is undescriblable. There's even a customer that tells me this place have it's standards when I served her then I smiled at her feeling so happy. But that was the day before. 你 知道他心里在想什么吗？已经对爱情麻木的他竟然发现一件让他自己也惊讶的事。但他不知对方如何所想因为对方设么都不知道。依然的他也没打算让对方知道他心 里对她的感觉。而且已开始他并不相信他会竟然喜欢上她但回头想想这些事情并不是在我们人的掌握中。那感觉是无法形容的。就这样他不知不觉地爱上了她。她到 底知不知道他喜欢她呢？可能他的一举一动还没那么明显吧。还是她早已发现自己被爱了但假装不知因为不知如何翻印而且对方都还没对她告白所以只好假装什么都 不知道等待告白才对他说出自己内心的感觉。还是只是他自己在一厢情愿，制作多情而以呢?
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Been very busy lately, so only now I had the time to post. Nothing much happened actually but I found out something that I really want to know myself. It's a good thing but for me it isn't. It's just I don't want myself to be in this state. It simply distracts me. Maybe can blame myself being selfish but I'm just afraid. Maybe afraid of the outcome but well, I rather things to be like now then making it more awkward. It'll be better. Trust me! I'm always right. Work as usual therefore leg pain as usual. Trying very hard to get used to it so no worries, it'll be fine. Deep down it isn't. Fuck this piece of shit! I hate this kind of feeling! I simply do! How how how? Any ideas what to do? I'm not going to tell anyone so no answers to that question. Sighs~ Please pull me out of this situation. I don't want history to repeat itself because I just have a feeling that it's going to happen again, blame me on my selfishness but I just do. Sorry.
Monday, June 9, 2008
First day of work was awesome. Nice environment, friendly people. Joined a platoon too. Great! But thinking of my appeal to MINDEF makes me feel unhappy. I wonder how long I can stay in NYNY. If my appeal wasn't successful then I'll have to leave NYNY in about a month or so. God please let me have a successful deferment so I can study and work. Summary of what I did today at work. Hmm, was doing all the dirty work clearing plates, cups, spoons, forks, knife, unfinished food, bones and shells. Makes my hands stinks with the smell from different sauce. Pushed trolley filled with trash and used cups and plates in and out of the kitchen. By the way, did I mentioned I slipped and fall? Yes I did. Floor was damn slippery and so I just weeeeeee and boom. But it was during the closing when everyone was clearing and doing etc. Had some nice food after closing and Jimmy my manager talk so cock and everyone headed back. =)
Look! Their restaurant are so nice. There's a bear holding a pan of pizza. How cute.
Many many jackpot slots.
The sun's setting.
Sun Rising.
It's only 5am plus and the sky is so bright already!