The tears in my eyes
The secrets in your eyes
Covered up with lies
Something that live within every lines
This is darkness in life
It's all too fast
Thought it would last
Turns into a moment I can't trust
In life there are regrets
Something that can't be forget
No matter how hard you try to get
There are still regrets
In this world, there's life
In life, there's happenings
Behind happenings, there's emotions
Every action leads to emotion
Smiles, tears and sulks
Emotional emotions
Where it all comes from
I got it alll wrong
Tell me where it's from
So I could be strong
It's hard to believe
A burden hard to lift
I need some relieve
Shit. I still can't bring myself to facing the fact that I'm actually booking in tonight. Every time I've booked-out I adapt to civilian life easily but once I'm about to book-in I feel reluctant. Why is adapting to army life so difficult? I still can't tune myself back and forth. This is torturing me, feeling so stress now. I'm afraid they might burn my weekends. I don't want this to happen so I trained hard but still I know I won't reached their standards but why? I still put in effort. Please allow all my book-outs to proceed smoothly.
Happy Chinese New Year still.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Life's tough in camp, I guess I'm still not used to army life yet. Still not use to waking up early in the morning before 5.30am. I'm already awake by then but the lesson I'm having simply turns me off. Every Sunday during noon time I feel sleepy and restless because I know it's another 5 days in and 2 days out. Life in camp is boring during PTP. I wonder how will BMT be? Plus every book-out I'm down with flu except for the first If there's a choice, I rather go to school then camp. Huge difference between choices But every man have to go through what I'm going through now, NS. So I just suffer first and continue my journey of life later. Sighs, miss my good old life. But humans grow up sooner or later What I'm going through is the process of growing up and becoming a better man Things will be good after 9 weeks, even better after 2 years It's hard to adapt by sleeping early on weekdays and late in weekends Totally shag Miss driving lesson on my birthday due to overslept 56 bucks gone during my sleeps, how sad Well, afterall there's no remedial driving lesson whereas there's remedial training in camp on a bloody Saturday How sad it is to book-out on Saturday afternoon. Now I understands why as each year past, more and more NSF died during training. Because they are all afraid of RT (Remedial Training) Weekends is precious to NSF
