The tears in my eyes
The secrets in your eyes
Covered up with lies
Something that live within every lines
This is darkness in life
It's all too fast
Thought it would last
Turns into a moment I can't trust
In life there are regrets
Something that can't be forget
No matter how hard you try to get
There are still regrets
In this world, there's life
In life, there's happenings
Behind happenings, there's emotions
Every action leads to emotion
Smiles, tears and sulks
Emotional emotions
Where it all comes from
I got it alll wrong
Tell me where it's from
So I could be strong
It's hard to believe
A burden hard to lift
I need some relieve
Thoughts and moments than I've been recalling. Chosen my path, Not the other path mentioned below, It's a new path that I'll walk myself. Whether I'm right or wrong is my choice. I choose it. Blame myself if I'm wrong. I'll be invisible without letting you know my presences. Sorry but I just can't be truthful because I don't want to screw things up again. I screwed lots of things. Shan't elaborate on what I had screwed. Personal stuff. Silence is all I want and need maybe sometimes little actions but keep it simple. Low profiling. Hoping that someday my presences will be felt. I don't want to be a failure. Sometimes I just don't know what I'm doing. As in seriously thinking I think I'm stupid. For some reasons I do stupid things. That's so totally irresponsible. Well maybe till now I still don;t know the meaning of being responsible. I never learn my lesson. Maybe I'm stubborn or it's just me. Yes me, Matthaeus, as simple as that. Sometimes it tends to be complicated. Dreams shattered, tears shedded and everything's gone in a flash. Can't even say goodbye. I don't see any chances and opportunities given to me. It's so unfair. In fact, nothing is fair in this world because in this world, people and heartless, realistic and cruel. I wonder how they have the sense of touch to feel things? Crap. Maybe they lost it somewhere. For heaven sake, find it back and feel for yourself as well as others. Then they will understand the feeling of being kind and warmhearted. Without this, they sucks. There's karma in this world. At first I don;t believe it but as times goes and for some reasons, I believed. Beware everybody, maybe someday karma will knock on your door and bring some darkness into your life. I experienced it. The feeling isn't good. So people, learn to cherish every little thing you have and think twice before hurting anyone. It's 6.16am now, rise and shine everybody. For me I'm off to bed now. Bye~
